Editor’s Note: I will be stepping in this month to guest write Thomas Goforth’s Tools of Transformation column as he takes a two month hiatus to move his practice.
We all know the feeling of carrying around something in our gut, our psyche, or our physicality that doesn’t sit with us well and causes a sense of unease. We’ve heard the term “lump in our throat”, “butterflies in our stomach”, and other metaphoric representations of the sensation of something being just a little bit off in the dense molecular system we call our human bodies.
Many times these feelings are reactions to immediate circumstances that we find ourselves in but other times they are the deeply embedded leftovers of things we have skipped over and have yet to deal with properly. Sometimes this is a result of holding something inside that we had wished we had said or let out that has now become a thudding reminder of our inability to say what we feel. Sometimes, we carry the remnants of shame, guilt, or anger over old confrontations and interactions with others that were never dealt with properly and consciously and now they are left to simmer like small lumps of coal in our system, ever glowing until we take the time to properly respect and acknowledge them in order to let them diffuse.
One of the biggest things I encounter when I practice my intuitive readings on people is the presence of these loose ends hanging around in the mental, spiritual and emotional bodies. It’s always amazing to me what happens when I bring these things to light for a person. Oftentimes the person will not even realize they are carrying these things around with them although they will readily admit to the ever-present dis-ease somewhere inside. And secondly, the minute we encounter these dense molecular energies, the person will typically immediately become in tune with them, know what they denote, and then be brought into a very powerful memory or situation that is connected with these feelings that needs to be cleaned up.
In the teachings of Alcoholics Anonymous, one of my favorite psychological practices, which is taught in recovery, is the moment when a person makes a personal inventory of all that they have done that they wish to make amends for. Making this list in itself is a powerful tool that allows the psyche to take accountability for its actions and then the next step is to take those list items one by one and clean them up. Sometimes this means calling a person one hasn’t seen in years just to say sorry. Sometimes this means paying back a long lost debt. Sometimes this means having a heart to heart with someone who slams the door in one’s face refusing to forgive. It isn’t the outcome of each confronted circumstance that provides the person closure, but the act of doing, of confronting, of attempting to clean their side of the street. This is one of the most powerful tools for spiritual cleansing and maintenance that I have encountered.
So when I give my intuitive readings to my clients, I will oftentimes lead them through a meditation I have created called Cleaning Your Side of the Street. Not only does it start the process of bringing up old remnants hanging around in the energetic field that need to be dealt with and healed but it also provides a wonderful daily practice that allows the person to keep their mental and spiritual and emotional bodies free going forward of getting anything else stuck in the system for the future. It allows the person to start living fully in the present, facing and embracing things as they come up, and dealing with all that comes their way in the most healthy and productive ways.
CLEANING YOUR SIDE OF THE STREET MEDITATION
Choose a quiet space in your home where you will not be bothered and or prone to any external noises or interruptions.
Create a little area for yourself that includes a pillow to sit on, a nice candle lit before you, something to write on and something to write with.
Sit down in this area with good posture and your legs crossed. Place both of your hands palms upon your thighs and touch the thumb and pointer finger together to create a bodily focus.
You are going to enter into a special meditation.
Please read this entire bold section about the technique and understand it fully before you begin:
BREATHING/COUNTING MEDITATION TECHNIQUE
Meditation is all about clearing the mind of chatter and entering a sacred silent space with your self. In this space, you can uncover answers and see a variety of things that you don’t normally notice. This meditation requires that you close your eyes and take deep in and out breathes that reach all the way down into your stomach. With each breath in you are going to mentally count one number and with each breath out you will mentally count another number. You will start with one and count according to each breath until you reach ten. Then you will start over again at one and count to ten again. You will continue to do this in this fashion, “In breath – 1, out breath – 2…and so on to ten” and then continue to start over again until the meditation is done.
What this does is it allows your brain to focus on a very specific task while breathing in and out to calm the spirit. This keeps you set in the present. If you were to continue counting past ten, your mind would just trail off into an eternal rhythm. Instead, you are focusing yourself to stay conscious in the moment so that you can be aware of what comes up.
As you are doing this, you may notice your mind wander or start to think about other things. As soon as you notice this happening, make note of the thought or vision you were having and then imagine it being wrapped in a pink bubble and see it float away as you let it go. Then bring yourself back to the number one with a deep breath in and get yourself back on track in the counting of ten. Continue to do this until the meditation is done.
Use a timer or alarm clock to set the time for 20 minutes and then begin this meditation doing exactly as was just prescribed above.
When the timer goes off, take some time to write down all of the things that came up for you that you had to wrap in a pink bubble to let go. Look at that list and confront each item with an open mind. Is there something you need to clean up? Is there a person you need to call? Is there someone you owe an apology to? Is there something you need to take care of? Take some time that day and work to get all of these things “cleaned” up.
If you are new to meditation, it may be difficult at first to follow the steps provided above but keep with it. It takes practice and gets easier with each new session. Know that your ego is the only thing that will try to prevent you from staying still, committing to the practice, or finding the time. Most people I know who think they do not have time for meditation, are the ones who feel they have more time in a day after they have successfully begun a practice.
Before long and with regular practice, you will notice that you have less and less things floating around in your system and you will notice that you are able to be in the present in your daily life more and able to tackle things as they happen rather that resorting to old ways of ignoring, stuffing and repressing. These behaviors will lead to a renewed sense of peace and overall well being that is priceless and this meditation will then become a maintenance of the healthy, fully flushed and thriving system you have empowered yourself to create.
Article written by Kimberly Nichols
Newtopia managing editor KIMBERLY NICHOLS is author of the book of literary short fiction Mad Anatomy, a contributing editor to 3AM Magazine and has exhibited as a conceptual artist throughout California for the past decade. Her non-fiction articles have appeared in magazines and media internationally. She was a founding editor of Newtopia in its former incarnation where she was also a member of the NewPoetry Collective. She is currently at work on her novel Fish Tales: Looking for the Bird with the Golden Feather. She has recently embarked on a journey of study in shamanic and medicine lore and wisdom under a series of respected teachers. Follow her daily beat poetry on Twitter @LITGFOA or her arts and literature blog.